There’s a melancholy that Britain offers me,
seeping into my soul, tempting to be sole.
You see, here I am, condemned,
longing for the sun but too afraid to run.
The chit-chats of the mass & the brats of the class,
the string that attaches to the communion ring.
Leave & live,
I sing.
Rain and Pain
Rain and pain
come hand in hand like connecting chain
Droplets down, running, outporing
Tears down, slithering, weeping
What is it in a rainy day that pain manifests freely?
Is it the water that ties the elements of droplets and tears?
Is it because rain hides the pain and camouflage it in its drenching?
What is it in the pain that rain can englove and embrace in its pitter-patter?
So many questions linger, but it doesn’t stop the rain, nor the pain.
Outside, inside, water everywhere, and that moody gloomy scenery.
I hear you, I feel you, I seize you, rain and pain.
In Love, In Pain
In the pain that ensues,
in love it imbues.
Or so to say?
Yay or nay?
The spat, the cut.
The spit, the slit.
I love you.
Still.
Samsara
Duka cita adalah duri-duri menancap di dada
ketika percaya tak lagi bermakna.
Tajamnya duri dalam gatra berbisa:
Racun apakah yang terhembus di telingamu?
Paranoia bersenda gurau dalam hiruk pikuk
ingatan tentang episode bodoh penuh birahi.
Tentu bukan salahmu, Sayang, tapi salahku:
Kenapa mempermasalahkan masa lalu?
Aku menyublim dalam ketidakhirauan
ada tapi tiada
di mana kemenangan bermakna samsara:
Matahari tak bersinar lagi bukan?
Waktu berdetak detik
menuntut sabar namun tak terkabulkan.
Meratapi abu, mengutukiku si pembakar segala:
Lupakah akan lara pedih perih satu-satunya pencintamu?
Mungkin sebaiknya moksa saja
ketimbang menjadi roh tak berupa
terlupa dalam bayangan yang meraja di jiwamu.
To You
Being in your embrace
is the peace of the calm ocean
reaching the depth of admiration
and compassion.
Making love to you
is the power of the highest mountain
achieving the peak of pleasure
and fulfilment.
You’re the sunshine
that chases away my darkness:
All demons cease to exist.
Only your light illuminates:
all my glitters and sparks glare to manifest.
Our souls intertwine, always
when distance and time divide:
Matter they don’t.
Eternity is what I seek
with you I wish.
Nenyizm 